i think about the past not setting any kind of precedent for any of this. there is no reference point for it. infact, i'd say it blindsided me totally 100%. i think about months and months ago, going out to some club dressed in my best shirt, best jeans, black cowboy boots and a penciled on mustache. i think about that night cause that's when it really all started, back then. that's when i knew it couldnt go on the way it did for so long- when it was time for things to change and be different.
when it was time to grow up and stop being petty.
i knew it then, but im really great at convincing myself otherwise and spinning situations to totally change my mind.
whatever the case things have changed and are better now. it's time for my lunch break.