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Tuesday, July 28th, 2009
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1:33 pm
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but before you go i gotta ask you dear about the tan line on your ring finger...
this is just how it is going to be.
love,
joel
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(light up my sky)
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| Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
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2:53 pm
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dear livejournal,
i love you and will always stick by you and will continue to post in you- i mean shit it's been like eight years. i kinda have to.
but for the less dramatic and less "real" visit me here:
dirtfag.blogspot.com
love,
joel
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(5 stars | light up my sky)
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| Wednesday, October 8th, 2008
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2:10 pm
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i'm leaving tomorrow morning for a month on tour. if you are in san francisco you should come to my goodbye show tonight...
and if you are in and or around any of the following cities you should come see us on tour with shannon and the clams...
10/8 San Francisco @ Thee Parkside w/ NoBunny, Ronni, DJ Dan Shaw
10/9 Los Angeles @ The Breakfast Club w/ Bobb Bruno
10/10 Bakersfield @ The Mint w/ X/X Girls
10/11 San Diego @ The Treehouse w/ TrashcanFires, The Sess
10/12 Phoenix @ Hollywood Alley w/ Rebel Set, Video Nasties
10/13 Santa Fe @ Backroads Pizza
10/14 Denver @ Old Curtis St Bar w/ Psuedo Dates
10/15 Lawrence @ 8th St Tap Room w/ Wrong Crowd
10/16 St Louis @ The Way Out w/ Wrong Crowd
10/17 Lousiville @ 6th and Oak w/ Woman Of Color
10/18 Columbus @ Monster House w/ Cars Can Be Blue
10/19 Red Lion / York @ RLH Guitars w/ TBA
10/20 Brooklyn @ Death By Audio w/ Love or Perish, Thrust Lab
10/22 Brooklyn @ Spike Hill CMJ Happy Happy Birthday to Me Records Show Case w/ Great Lakes, The Smittens, The Lolligags, Cars Can Be Blue, Bearsuit
10/23 Philadelphia @ 22nd & Passyunk across from Good Will w/ Used Kids, Mr Radar, Dr Scientist
10/24 New Jersey @ The Parlour w/ The Jurks, TBA
10/26 Cleveland @ The Matinee w/ The Dimeras
10/27 Lafayette @ Zooleggers w/ The Sweet Sixteens
10/28 Chicago -- CHIC-A-GO-GO Taping
10/28 Chicago @ Ronny's w/ Action Finger and more TBA
10/29 TBA
10/30Milwaukee @ Frank's Powerplant w/ Crappy Dracula
10/31 St Paul/MPLS @ Ben's House w/ Les Deux Maggots and more SUPER FUN HALLOWEEN PARTY!!!!!
11/4 Seattle @ The Funhouse w/ TACOCAT
11/6 Vancouver @ The Sweatshop w/ Nu Sensae, Channels 3x4
11/7 Portland @ Marlena and Ashley's House w/ The Brabes, The Caldonias, Magic Johnson
11/8 Portland @ Slabtown w/ TBA
11/9 San Francisco @ The Hemlock w/ Schwule welcome home show
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| Thursday, August 28th, 2008
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7:40 pm
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do you live in any of these cities or know someone who does and want to help book my bands fall tour!?!?! i'll love you forever.
Forever and Shannon and the Clams Fall Tour!
October 9 San Francisco (i think we got this one)
October 10 Los Angeles CA
October 11 San Diego CA
October 12 Tucson AZ
October 13 ABQ NM
October 14 Denver CO
October 15 Wichita KS or Omaha NE
October 16 St Louis MO (we might have something but if you know bands that would rule_
October 17 Louisville KY (show booked already)
October 18 Columbus OH
October 19 Pittsburgh PA (why is it so hard to get a show in a place i used to live!)
October 20 Brooklyn NY (show booked already)
October 21-25 various locales no need for help here
October 26 Cleveland OH (show booked already)
October 27 Lafayette IN (show booked already)
October 28 Chicago IL
October 29 Milwaukee WI
October 30 Madison WI
October 31 Minneapolis MN (something in the works i think...)
November 1 Pierre SD (something in the works i think)
November 3 Missoula MT
November 4 Seattle WA (no need here)
November 7 Portland OR (no need here)
Help is gladly repaid in a free cd or something.
love,
joely
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| Friday, June 23rd, 2006
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5:20 pm
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| Friday, May 26th, 2006
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5:00 pm
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if i will it strongly enough it will happen.
go home. go home. go home. go home. go home.
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(1 star | light up my sky)
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| Thursday, May 25th, 2006
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3:35 pm
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i applied for a new job.
i have to quit my current job bc i hate it.
i hope i get this new job.
i hope they let me go to nyc and on tour.
if not, im seriously fucked
dont put the cart before the horses
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(9 stars | light up my sky)
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| Friday, May 12th, 2006
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5:57 pm
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i did mushrooms two weeks ago. i haven't done mushrooms in a very long time.
i sat in the boys apartment (with the other boy and j.) staring at everything in their place that made me feel giddy and gleeful. i stared at r.'s records for nearly an hour tripping on how the plastic and the colors kept swirling back and forth.
my face tingles when i trip and it felt like someone held a vibrator to my face. i could barely control my lips they kept quivering. i cried a lot too- tears of joy only. i hadn't felt that good on drugs in a long long time. it made me remember that at one point- i really really loved doing drugs.
im glad im past most of that now- but i would eat mushrooms once a week if i could.
m. and i have been hanging out with the boys a lot lately and im finding myself liking all three of them more and more and more everyday. whatever this is that is going on- it's good for me, it's good for my relationship w/ m. and it's really making me feel all junior high school again.
tonight im going to see poseidon at the imax. i decided i'd take all three boys with me because right now i couldnt think of anyone better id rather see it with. i watched the original last night on A&E or something. i hope this remake lives up to how much i like the original.
i remember the first time i went to the movieland hollywood wax museum in buena park and we walked through the poseidon adventure exhibit. i remember thinking, "what is this movie and why havent i seen it?" i remember the first time i watched it and how i was so into it. i cant wait to see this new remake tonight and on imax. fuck yes.
things with my band are getting fucking crazy! we are finalizing a lot of our tour plans right now and it looks like it's shaping up to be an exciting two weeks. we are adding a date in san diego maybe- so it looks like we will be playing twice in the homestead. that will fucking rule. once at the che and once at the flame (keep yr fingers crossed). LA is still questionable- the smell hasnt confirmed yet. orange county is set- that show will be fun and im hoping my san diego people will drive up to the OC to see us play- even if they are exhausted on us. i know they love me and would do it for me? hum? hum?
after la we hit bakersfield which will be a fucking riot. fresno is still unsure. sf show is set. portland is nearly set. seattle is nearly set. vancouver is in the works. and our out door renegade show in olympia will happen no matter what.
on top of all that we got offered to open for this by sybris from chicago in june at cafe du nord. cafe du nord is one of those big small venues. it's so exciting to play there again. jn. talked to the booker today and he basically told he we could play there anytime we wanted because 1.) we rock and 2.) we conduct ourselves so professionally and they are so happy about that. fuck yes.
when we get back in august we already have shows lined up in oakland and here in the city with our favorite band barbarasteele @ the elbo room on dollar pbr night. that too will be exciting and fun.
we were talking about recording an ep shortly after we get back. after we've had sometime to rest, recoup, and reorganize. i would be so excited to do that. it would be awesome to have a really great recording.. maybe even a 7"?
my designs are working nicely these days. right now i have orders for a hoodie, three shirts, and a rug. m. and i are planning a launch party in november for our labels. we even talked to r. who said he'd be interested in throwing in his website as part of it. which would be radical. we're looking at having some huge event at like an art gallery with djs, projections, shit for sale and all around fun. i hope we can make it happen.
my life feels like its in overdrive right now and i dont want to slow down. not even a little bit, not even at all.
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| Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
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3:12 pm
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tuesday tuesday.
i have a short work week, the shortest ever maybe. but it always feels like it just drags on and on and on. so shitty. i hate this job and i hate this desk and this window and this carpet. i hate the keys to every single fucking door. i hate the bathrooms. i hate everything.
i've been saying it for so long- but im starting to really accept the fact that i need a new job and need to leave this one behind me. problem, its pretty neccessary that i get paid the same amount or more to continue to live... i've got lots of bills, lots this, lots of that. i haven't been looking too much but there's just nothing really right now.
i wish i had better connections. i wish someone would say "come work for my job..." or "they are hiring at blah blah blah and i know someone" or i donno anything.
at this point im contemplating quitting, getting a job as a bike mechanic and a part time job slinging coffee. that being said, i'd be happy for a new desk job... something cozy and comfortable where all i have to do is answer phones, write emails, make copies and send out the mail.
i would hire me.
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(light up my sky)
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| Monday, May 1st, 2006
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5:43 pm - reconstruction
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time to rebuild burnt bridges. the sun is shining and the traffic coming off the freeway exit outside my office window has been steady all day long.
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(1 star | light up my sky)
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12:03 pm - the otherside
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back at work. already hate it. 300 emails to go through and sort out the junk and the real ones- i'd imagine there are probably like 30 i actually have to read and maybe 15 i have to actually respond to.
9 phone messages.
2 notes on my desk.
my surgery was/is scheduled for wednesday- i have to call the doctor to see if they can push it back a little bit. im not physically or mentally ready for that. and i have a show no thursday. no thanks not missing that one.
i dont have anything interesting or exciting to say.
current music: esg
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| Monday, April 24th, 2006
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7:32 pm - destroyer
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i went out for drinks on saturday with a bunch of new friends. we sat and talked and laughed and everything was wonderful. we were supposed to go to some louis vutton party but it looked really lame and im glad we didnt. instead we went over to j's house and watched tv, smoked pot, and drank vodka tonics.
m. showed up eventually and more hanging out happened. we left j's house and went back to home base in the TL. im getting so used to being over there, i really do like that place a lot. all the posters on the wall, little figurines everyone, the huge record collection, the uncomfortable small bed.
we stuck around for awhile watching the last few episodes of arrested development which are totally fucking amazing. after cuddling on the couch and drinking more drinks i felt a strange yet familiar feeling in my throat.
that burning, that pain when you swallow...
as it turns out i had another abscess in my throat. that makes three in the past two years. so, long story short i have to go into surgery in a few weeks to get my tonsils taken out. they gave me liquid vicoden to help with the pain and let me just say... it's fucking me up.
i feel so drunk and so wobbly.
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(3 stars | light up my sky)
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| Friday, April 21st, 2006
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12:33 pm - deep dent
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i think about the prospect of bodies pilled on top of each other; tangled in a sweaty sea of arms and backs and stomaches and legs. i think about the traffic noises coming in from the window when its four in the morning -OR- the sounds of birds and garbage trucks at five. i think about the way light filters into a room when night transitions to day and how for the past few weeks i've come to be so familiar with that transition. i think about casualness, love, jealousy, friendship, romance, happiness.
i think about the past not setting any kind of precedent for any of this. there is no reference point for it. infact, i'd say it blindsided me totally 100%. i think about months and months ago, going out to some club dressed in my best shirt, best jeans, black cowboy boots and a penciled on mustache. i think about that night cause that's when it really all started, back then. that's when i knew it couldnt go on the way it did for so long- when it was time for things to change and be different.
when it was time to grow up and stop being petty.
i knew it then, but im really great at convincing myself otherwise and spinning situations to totally change my mind.
whatever the case things have changed and are better now. it's time for my lunch break.
current music: pulp
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| Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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2:48 pm - west coast tour
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dates not so set...
7/22 san diego @ che cafe w/ the afterlife (LA) *confirmed*
7/23 santa ana @ sol art gallery w/ slow (OC!) *almost confirmed*
7/24 los angeles @ the smell w/ the afterlife *cross yr fingers*
7/25 bakersfield @ the boxing ring? or somewhere *pretty much set almost*
7/26 fresno @ don't remember what the place is called *almost confirmed*
7/27 san francisco @ the edinburgh castle w/ little teeth and crime and punishment *confirmed*
7/28 sacramento ... where the fuck are we going to play in sacramento?
7/29 portland ... nothing set yet?
7/30 seattle @ jamie's fucking huge house *confirmed*
7/31 vancouver ... where the fuck are we going to play in vancouver?
8/1?-8/5? olympia who knows at this point...
this is going to be so gnarly. im going to smell so bad by the time we get to fresno.
fuck yeah.
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11:33 am - again and again
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i fucking did it again. what is it exactly that convinces me to get so wasted the night before i go to work and to stay up until 5 am smoking weed and hanging the fuck out. i am going crazy.
i took the day off of work yesterday to recover from a hard weekend of partying and dealing with a little sickness. c. called me around 4 to ask if i wanted to go see thank you for smoking with him. i met him at his place a few hours later and we hauled ass to the post office to see about getting his taxes mailed off. he missed the post office downtown so we walked to the one in the TL and that one was also closed.
we made our way to the movie theater and got there just in the knick of time. c. and i had awkward arm sex during the movie. thank you for smoking was hilarious and totally worth every penny. i'd even wager to say i'd see it again.
we went back to c.'s house and hung out with r., l., and m. until the wee hours of the night. we played scene it and i lost terribly. at 230ish i went and waited for the bus drunk and stoned out of my mind. it pulled up shortly after i got to my stop but by this time it was totally standing room only- which sucked shit. i made it to my stop quickly and fast enough to go to the late night taco shop before it closed to get drunk food.
i got home and sat on the couch with m. and thought about how i didnt want to go to work today. here i fucking am.
gah.
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(5 stars | light up my sky)
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| Sunday, April 16th, 2006
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7:24 pm
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i cannot, i repeat cannot continue to get so drunk that the next day im totally obliterated.
last night was c.'s birthday party in japantown. i like that in the mall there are seriously 500 sticker photo booths. karaoke is not my scene, but seeing some kid karaoke sugar ray was totally good times. then the really fancy jazz bar afterwards where jazz-hammer was playing was not so great.
the craft at three in the morning followed by awkward sleep was wonderful.
my life is turning out to be pretty fucking crazy and exciting.
today at band meeting j. and s. said to me "you know, you look super shitty... hungover and what not." i said "well yeah, all this going out and partying is really taking its toll on me." then they said "sounds like a fag to me, and really deep down inside you're a dyke and you should prolly just come over, drink herbal tea, and sit with us while we stroke each other's hair..."
simple life.
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| Friday, April 14th, 2006
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2:16 pm
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wednesday night my band played at hotel utah.
the opening band was a group called "the revolving door band" and were made up of five old men (probably all in their mid 50's) who played a style of music they dubbed ARO! (that's american rock originals, if you were curious). They were totally a nasty old man bar band... you know the kind that talk inbetween every single song and the kind that totally say who they are, what they play as they solo in the last song. it was pretty much disturbing. other than that, the bass player wore sweatpants up to his stomach with the drawstring out and a white collared shirt to you know, dress it up.
after they played the crowd thinned out a little bit and it was our turn to go on. were not much of a bar band and we haven't really crafted our stage presence so much so it was a "tough act to follow" so to speak.
we played our set and it was pretty alright. the boys sat up in the balcony and i could see all three of their beautiful faces staring down on me as i played. they threw paper airplanes at my as i was setting down my drumkit.
while we were loading our stuff into the van the bass player in the sweatpants and collared shirt came to talk to us and tell us how much he liked our set. he told jess that she was a great bass player and had a really great sense of melody and rhythm. then he said "and your drummer, he reminds me of a young keith moon." dude, WTF!? that's the best compliment EVER.
we packed up and j. and s. took everything back to the space while i stuck around to be the band liason. i walked around the corner with the boys and smoked a bowl in an alley and talked about scooters, bad tattoos, kissing games, and the price is right.
when we got back to the venue the music was too much for me to handle... im not into psychadelic stoner rock or whatever it was. so we sat outisde, smoked cigarettes and sought our own entertaniment.
lazlow played finally and they were incredible. the drummer is such a giant side of beefcake... all big and muscley and sweaty. total beefcake. the guitar player also has the sweetest face i think ive ever seen. they are also both like 9 feet tall. which is cool if that's your bag or whatever.
we parted ways with the boys and drove home in the toaster. m. passed out on me half way into the long ride home. (we went the wrong way).
i crawled into bed after a shower so sore from lifting things and the night before. i was excited about a long hard night of sleep. i slept until 3 the next day.
i watched yesterday go by slowly; prayed that today wouldn't come. but now it's here and im at work again. but will be leaving early today i think...
things are crazy. when does the fun ever stop?
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| Thursday, April 13th, 2006
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4:06 pm
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| Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
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2:28 pm - working for the revolution
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work is so stressful and tiring. work is so busy and never ending. work is what we do when were not sleeping, doing drugs, drinking beer, playing with the dogs. making art is work, just as hard as anything. work is never ending.
but, sometimes it's fulfilling. when you realize you're a "local expert" in your field. when your opinion is respected and listened to it feels... good. when people are asking for your help and expertise because they "couldn't do it without you" that feels so validating. (i hate that word, too much liberal arts college guilt still attached to it)
work can be good. it can feel good. it can feel productive. you can feel like yes, i did change the world just a little bit today, babysteps lopez, babysteps. tonight is the first night of my new program at work, the one where i feed homeless kids on a weekly basis.
who would've ever thought at this age, at this stage in the game... i'd be running a "soup kitchen" for homeless gay kids. i feel so defined and so, matter of fact. my life is forming and it's scary to sit back and watch it happen this way.
yesterday someone said to me, "just wait like 3 or 4 more years and you can quit whatever it is you're doing and become a consultant to non-profits, you're heading in the direction of becoming the whose who of your field in your area. then when you become a consultant you can charge out of control amounts of money just so people can hear you speak."
i wish it was as simple as those terms... it clearly will never be.
it's raining pretty hard today, yesterday it was beautiful and now... this bullshit.
i keep listening to this fucking brian eno song over and over. then it gets stuck in my head and everytime im having a conversation with someone i just hum it over and over and over in my head... i totally missed what you just said excuse me can you repeat yourself?
here we are stuck by this river,
you and i underneath the sky that's ever
falling down... down... down.
what did you just say? i wasn't paying attention?
tonight after work is band practice and then drinks and dancing with faggoty friends. im glad m. and i have a faggot couple friendship going on. it feels, nice.
i wish i had something cute to wear out.
current music: by this river -- brian eno
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| Monday, April 10th, 2006
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1:09 pm
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ps-
im starting work on a documentary.
my deadline for shooting everything is the end of june.
things are fucked up and crazy and im so busy. this project is going to make my life harder and turn it into hell.
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